Re: Purple Patch Of The Day (or Week)
John Cowper Powys has the largest working vocabulary of any novelist in the English language; and when it comes to the sheer range of words, drawn from all aspects of life, at his command, he is second only to Shakespeare. I first encountered this curious fact during my second year of university, when I read an essay by George Steiner (a nod to gveranon). To say that Steiner was effusive in his praise of the Welsh novelist would be an understatement. Excited by the promise of discovering a new writer--not merely a writer but a wordsmith, a word-wielder, a baroque maestro!--I began haunting the secondhand bookshops for anything I could find by the Welshman. I have been a devoted reader of his ever since. The following passage of baroque prose (sorry, Nemonymous, but it has a better ring to it than "purple patch"), comes from Powys' colossal
Autobiography. The young, aspiring writer has just been offered a teaching position at a girls' school. Hold on tight, Ligottian friends, for this is some thunderous, intoxicating prose, and in no time at all you'll be swaying like drunkards on these rolling waves of words:
I could hardly credit my ears. This was something I had never thought of. Girls' School?
Schools of girls! I saw them gleaming like porpoises; shoals and shoals and shoals of them, waiting for their new professor at West Brighton. Were all those invisible lovelinesses, that I had so often told myself stories about, going to incarnate themselves at this crisis in my life, going to call upon me to lead, guide, teach, instruct, inspire, encorcerize them?
I thanked Mr. Grabbitas with the gravest discretion--my pulses beating furiously--and taking a hansom to London Bridge caught the next train to Brighton.
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Schools of girls... shoals of girls... flocks and flurries of girls... what a thing, what an incomprehensible thing for my destiny to evoke! The very word "girl," especially if pronounced, as some of my relatives pronounced it, not to rhyme with "pearl," but to rhyme with "there'll," even as you would say it in a sentence: "there'll be gairls," thrilled me at that time of my life in a manner impossible to describe. It conveyed to my mind a sort of fleeting, floating, fluttering fantasy of femininity, a kind of Platonic essence of sylph-hood, not exactly virginal sylphid-ness, but the sate of being-a-Sylph carried to such a limit of tenuity as almost to cease to have any of the ordinary feminine attributes. This incarnation of airy tantalization was all that the word "girl" evoked for me, however pronounced. It always conveyed the idea to me of an impressionability, under an embrace, so flexible, so yielding, as to bear a resemblance to that ethereal vaporousness of the Homeric shades in
Hades, that could not be felt at all as you embraced them! Thus the word "girl" almost ceased for me to have the least connection with the living personalities of real girls. When I saw a real girl I saw a feminine person, almost a feminine man; but these "girls" of my imagination, or rather I ought to say of my desire, could all have stood, thousands of them together, just like those jeered-at angels of scholasticism on the narrow apex of my winnowed, purged, and three-times-over-refined fastidiousness.
For the truth is, what I am so intensely attracted to, what I worshipped in those days to a point of idolatrous aberration, are hardly of the feminine sex at all! It is as if I had been born into this world from another planet--certainly not Venus, Saturn possibly!--where there was a different sex altogether from the masculine and feminine that we know. It is of this sex, of the Saturnian sex, that I must think when in the secret chambers of my mind I utter the syllable "girl." I suppose women are more like these elfin sylphs, these fleeting ephemerals, than most men are; but I am not perfectly sure even about this! The maternal instinct in women, so realistic, so formidable, so wise, so indulgent, is more remote from, and destructive of, the sylph-nature--the nature of these girls who are more girlish than girls--than the spirit of Hercules himself! I think that the inmost flame of my soul, the vital leap of my life-force, must be as fragile and tenuous as it is formidable and fierce; and that it is this brittleness and fineness in this interior flame which makes it flee, as if from cartloads of horned devils, at the faintest approach of any warm maternal lovingness, as if such lovingness would bury it under a thousand bushels, like the scriptural candle.
I cannot believe that a person's sex-emotions exist in some disconnected by-alley of his being without affecting the whole of his nature. My attitude to everything I worship, to the sea, to the mountains, to the earth, to the sun, to the moon, to Homer, to Shakespeare, to Rabelais, to Don Quixote, to lichen growing upon tree-stumps, to moss growing upon stones, to smoke rising from a cottage chimney, must be of this same fine, tenuous intensity; an intensity terribly shy of large, warm human normality, and always flickering round and about the magic candles of the exceptional.
In my most thrillingly happy moments I feel as if my nature were essentially light, volatile, porous, transparent. I seem to float at such times on waves of a quivering ether, an ether vibrant as the hovering heat-waves over an August cornfield. And it is on such an air-tide of quivering vibrations that I seem to be floating, when for a brief moment, in any real woman, I catch some faint trace of my sylphid ideal. It is pure impersonal lust; it is lust without the faintest mixture of anything that from a moralist's point of view could be called "redeeming." And yet I am prepared to justify it without scruple or shame! It is my religion, my beatific vision, my rapturous initiation into the mysteries...
I could go on: the entire
Autobiography, all 652 pages of it, is written with this same level of gusto! At the risk of embarrassing myself, I confess that 13 years ago, when I read this book for the first time, I underlined, with a quivering pencil, the above sentence:
the nature of these girls who are more girlish than girls...