LeglessSaltyDiogenes
Acolyte
UG was raised by Theosophists in India and they had him doing things like jhanas (highly concentrated altered states) at a young age. His descriptions of powerful shaking vibrations and painful metamorphoses eerily recall the descriptions of the Arising and Passing Away experience as described by Burmese meditation masters and recounted in Dan Ingram's meditation manual "Mastering the Core Teachings of Buddha":
Since its possible to master concentration states while remaining behind in insight practices I wonder if UG hadn't reached this stage of meditation through tremendous spiritual momentum, which would explain why it was so painful and discombobulating. His cynicism about the possibility of true enlightenment, as well as the continuing vibrations and darkness of his vision, bespeak to me a hellish Dark Night of the Soul (MCTB 5. Dissolution, Entrance to the Dark Night - Wiki - www.dharmaoverground.org), which inevitably follows A&P like the moon follows the sun. Also his description of post "calamity" consciousness as being "discontinuous" reminds me of the descriptions of "Fruition" (which I haven't experienced fully yet, so I'll shut up about it).
I also believe Ligotti to be experienced in these realms; from reading his fiction and interviews, it seems he has the requisite insights into suffering, impermanence and No-Self to have at least crossed this barrier. He could have easily crossed it during his drug using teenage years (psychedelics can catalyze these experiences and launch you into new territory without preparation).
In any case I'm interested in hearing from anyone who has practiced meditation and found their experiences to be similar to UG's. I know the first time I crossed A&P, although I was ruled by strong bliss and concentration, I felt out of control in a manic way that turned into the depths of a depressive period which coincided with my Dark Night. Thankfully I knew how to practice through it, but if I hadn't I would probably be stuck there now. My compassion goes towards anyone who has been through this and can't find a way out.
(1) Mastering the Core Teachings of Buddha, Dan Ingram, 2012
In the early part of this stage, the meditator's mind speeds up more and more quickly, and reality begins to be perceived as particles or fine vibrations of mind and matter, each arising and vanishing utterly at tremendous speed. The traditional texts actually call this stage the beginning of insight practices, as from this point on there is a much more direct and non-conceptual understanding of the Three Characteristics.
This stage is marked by dramatically increased perceptual abilities when compared with the previous stages. For example, one might be able to hone one’s awareness to laser-like precision on the tip of one’s little finger and seemingly be able to perceive the beginning and ending of every single sensation that made up that finger. Spontaneous physical movements and strange jerky breathing patterns that showed up in Cause and Effect and became more pronounced in the Three Characteristics may speed up significantly. This stage explains where many practices such as Tibetan inner fire practices of the Yogic breath of fire come from. It can also reveal the source material that inspired teachings such as those about chakras and energy channels. Many descriptions of Kundalini awakening are talking about this stage(1).
Since its possible to master concentration states while remaining behind in insight practices I wonder if UG hadn't reached this stage of meditation through tremendous spiritual momentum, which would explain why it was so painful and discombobulating. His cynicism about the possibility of true enlightenment, as well as the continuing vibrations and darkness of his vision, bespeak to me a hellish Dark Night of the Soul (MCTB 5. Dissolution, Entrance to the Dark Night - Wiki - www.dharmaoverground.org), which inevitably follows A&P like the moon follows the sun. Also his description of post "calamity" consciousness as being "discontinuous" reminds me of the descriptions of "Fruition" (which I haven't experienced fully yet, so I'll shut up about it).
I also believe Ligotti to be experienced in these realms; from reading his fiction and interviews, it seems he has the requisite insights into suffering, impermanence and No-Self to have at least crossed this barrier. He could have easily crossed it during his drug using teenage years (psychedelics can catalyze these experiences and launch you into new territory without preparation).
In any case I'm interested in hearing from anyone who has practiced meditation and found their experiences to be similar to UG's. I know the first time I crossed A&P, although I was ruled by strong bliss and concentration, I felt out of control in a manic way that turned into the depths of a depressive period which coincided with my Dark Night. Thankfully I knew how to practice through it, but if I hadn't I would probably be stuck there now. My compassion goes towards anyone who has been through this and can't find a way out.
(1) Mastering the Core Teachings of Buddha, Dan Ingram, 2012