Nemonymous
Grimscribe
You asked me about my assertion that life is a condition, like a terminal illness, for which there is not so much a cure as a protracted but always provisory series of allayments, mere distractions for the brain to keep it occupied and far away from the dangerous questions of human existence. Well, I thought I had made all of that clear before, and so I apologize if I hadn’t. But if you must have it again, I will summarize the more salient points one last time, not because I feel you would understand it any better through a by-rote repeating of the words--indeed, the events in question are such that with each iteration new insights emerge from darkness, things formerly hidden, and what had previously seemed undeniable fact dissolves into a mist of uncertainty--but because I hope to work something out for myself, some new take on the problems that have been bothering me ever since it all began.
You are no doubt aware of the condition of the streets hereabouts in Barstowe; and not just their physical condition--the way they always seem to be covered in a gray soot, with oil and grease lining every brick--but even the way they are laid out, with no discernible center, no easily identifiable direction, busy thoroughfares suddenly petering out, without turning, into shabby half-lit side streets, and seemingly blind alleys alternately giving out onto open highway one moment, and, uncannily, a remote ploughland the next. The maps of our city are hopelessly inaccurate, showing references to places that don’t exist, and vice versa: try to find the terminus of Pinnacle Street and you my friend shall be left wanting! Yes, various intrepid individuals have been brought in from time to time to help figure it all out, but what have they shown us? Half-finished projects, abandoned in frustration, pointing up the fundamentally insoluble nature of the problem. Ho, they’ve even tried to take a picture from outer space! Can you imagine it? A tin box spinning two thousand kilometers above the earth to find something we can’t even see with our own eyes, right here in front of us. Maybe it is not my place to criticize these things, when it is a wonder that such feats are possible at all, right? Well, to this day the mystery remains unsolved; but what if I told you that I once knew a man who had done it, had at last come up with the only accurate and reliable map of Barstowe, our beloved but most amorphously inclined city of improbability?
--- From 'Terminus' by S.D. Tullis - published 'Zencore!' (Nemonymous 7) 2007
You are no doubt aware of the condition of the streets hereabouts in Barstowe; and not just their physical condition--the way they always seem to be covered in a gray soot, with oil and grease lining every brick--but even the way they are laid out, with no discernible center, no easily identifiable direction, busy thoroughfares suddenly petering out, without turning, into shabby half-lit side streets, and seemingly blind alleys alternately giving out onto open highway one moment, and, uncannily, a remote ploughland the next. The maps of our city are hopelessly inaccurate, showing references to places that don’t exist, and vice versa: try to find the terminus of Pinnacle Street and you my friend shall be left wanting! Yes, various intrepid individuals have been brought in from time to time to help figure it all out, but what have they shown us? Half-finished projects, abandoned in frustration, pointing up the fundamentally insoluble nature of the problem. Ho, they’ve even tried to take a picture from outer space! Can you imagine it? A tin box spinning two thousand kilometers above the earth to find something we can’t even see with our own eyes, right here in front of us. Maybe it is not my place to criticize these things, when it is a wonder that such feats are possible at all, right? Well, to this day the mystery remains unsolved; but what if I told you that I once knew a man who had done it, had at last come up with the only accurate and reliable map of Barstowe, our beloved but most amorphously inclined city of improbability?
--- From 'Terminus' by S.D. Tullis - published 'Zencore!' (Nemonymous 7) 2007