R.I.P Sundog

I just wanted to make a small tribute here to Thomas Wilhelm Alexander (aka Sundog here) who killed himself recently. We were in the same FB groups for a while and he was actually the one who told me about this forum in the first place.

He was an antinatalist/efilist just like me and many others.

I don't know exactly the date nor the method he used (I tried contacting his friend who initially reported this to one of the people on FB) but his last post on both TLO and FB is dated at the end of February. He was 33 years old. His suffering is now over so, not to be taken literally of course since there is no post-mortem existence, but R.I.P.

One of his best videos where he was reading Ligotti was here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YtYzy7qWTMI

[Freyasfire]

Oh wow. RIP Sundog.

[Andrea Bonazzi]

. . . Sad. I can understand, being right now in depression.

[MadsPLP]

This is schocking, though not very surprising news. I feel very odd about this. He's one of my oldest acquaintances - I have known him since I was 14 or 15 or 16 or something like that, when we met at some pre-party for a Sieben concert and later at the Roskilde Festival, where we watched some concerts together. We only met occasionally over the years, at concerts or sometimes - not often enough, probably due to my dislike for contacting people in general to go out to socialise (even close friends), and possibly some insecurity on his part - for beers and to talk. Last time must be a few years ago. I remember supplying him with photocopies of the poems included in the Durtro editions of Teatro Grottesco, he giving me a print of his avatar here on TLO and giving flyers for the Oneiricon website he was starting at that time. Strange to think that we would only meet a few times more.

Later on, I sold him some books by Thomas Bernhard and Max Blecher at the book shop where I used to work, and he was very much enthralled by both, I think, in spite of excusing himself, telling me he was a very slow reader.

I also remember meeting him at a Death in June concert in 2011, and since then, I doubt I have seen him. He was an acquaintance I would have liked to know better, but I suspect certain personality traits in both of us prevented either of us from contacting the other.

I strongly disagreed with a lot of his opinions and his sometimes confrontatory personality. I always liked him very much, though I probably didn't show it enough. He was one of the most intelligent men I've ever met, and one of the most dissatisfied (I'm not sure he always knew what exactly he was so dissatisfied with, but he would probably let me know otherwise had I voiced my doubt). His parents lived in Roskilde. I'm sorry to hear he's dead, and I'm sorry I didn't see him more often that was the case, and I'm very sorry that he chose to commit suicide, if not for himself, then for my own sake at least, despite me not knowing him well enough.

Well, we did talk with others in the group about our preferred suicide method and he did have one in mind although I am not sure if that's the one he opted for.

None of us really encouraged him to go one way or another, but obviously there is no solution to the problem and there really aren't any pep talks for people who have figured out the truth about life and existence in general (at least based on scientific facts and personal observations which is more than sufficient).

I am however happy that he is now at peace which he always wanted and should never have been ripped out from per my own and his admittance.

[Druidic]

“I felt what we always feel when someone dies—the sad awareness, now futile, of how little it would have cost us to have been more loving. One forgets that one is a dead man conversing with dead men.” – Borges

Requiescat in pace, Thomas Wilhelm Alexander.
Your voice will be missed, Sundog.

[Cnev]

Very saddened to hear this.

[waffles]

I'm really sorry to hear this.

[Malone]

Very sad news. My condolences to his friends and family.

[MagnusTC]

How shocking and how sad.